First of all, very sorry to all those who waited for my posts.( Though I know there is only one such person.)
Now I don’t know what I am going to write, but a thing constantly suffers me, Is there really a God? Is there really any supernatural power beyond our human existence? This question constantly suffers me a lot.
The one side of me says that really there is something named God. The other side says no there is no God, its just a conception people have made to be afraid of. These two sides of mine namely Side A and B have spent 22 years (ahnn 23 now next month) fighting with each other and not reaching on any definite point giving birth to a new side known as side C i.e. me.
Side C is confused whether there is something called God or not. Side C has written many letters to God, but not knowing the address of God, all those letters went to a river or are burned, leaving all the questions unanswered.
I many times ask myself that if there is no God, then why there are so many Temples, Gurudwaras, Churches and Mosques all over the world. All people going to these places regularly can’t be fool.
And if there is no God, then why bad things happen to good people? Where is his Justice? Why some people spend their whole lives waiting for a “KARMA” like thing to happen and solve all their problems and eventually die waiting. Why God takes someone’s mother’s life on the day of her birthday at 4.30 in the morning and since that day she wakes up at 4.30 a.m. every day. The shock wakes her up everyday even now.
If really there is God, then he can’t have so bad sense of humor. Its said read Bhagwat Geeta because it contains all the answers to the questions of the man. I even read that, but in the modern day world it is impossible for any man to do all the acts mentioned there like for his whole life, leaving all my questions still unanswered.
I know that all the questions in life can’t be answered, and if they are answered, life will loose its existence and meaning, but still a time comes in life when all these assumptions that all the questions can’t be answered becomes blurred and the thrust for answers increases leaving Side C again in a state where still he don’t have any strong points either to support Side A or B.